Bar exam

Well I am half way finished. Today was the essay portion and after 6 hours of writing, my hand is numb and my back is aching. But, all and all I am feeling pretty good! Despite weeks of stress and lack of sleep, my nerves remained surprisingly calm. I think because I accepted the fact that life will go on if I don't pass and I KNOW I will get it the next time if I don't pass this time. Normally this would not be acceptable since I am one of those people that feels like if I'm not ahead, I'm behind...but under these circumstances I'm making an exception. I mean lets face it, how many people do you know taking the bar exam at 9 months pregnant? lol. Not to mention the fact that I graduated 3 years ago and my review course was taught via an ipod! All that aside, the only thing I wish I had done differently was ask for 1 more week off work. I think that would have made a huge difference. But hindsight is 20/20 and who knows maybe I'll surprise myself and pass! =) And by the time I find out the results, I will have a sweet baby girl so it won't really matter as much.

On a happy note, there will be a baby here in 4 weeks...probably less than that!! I can finally relax and get ready for her arrival. Looking forward to upcoming baby showers and finishing her room!!

33 weeks and counting....

My anxiety over the baby and the upcoming bar exam is on overload...I will not miss the emotional aspect of being pregnant thats for sure! So, I took a much needed night off Saturday and BJ took me out to dinner. It was nice to get my mind off things for a little while. BJ also spent all weekend working on the baby nursery. It is a work in progress (if you know what we started with then you understand). But, it is turning out beautiful! My hubby is great!!!

Baby Kaitlin's 4d Ultrasound

We had another ultrasound last week and it was amazing. I cannot even describe it. We could see her moving, her toes, and even her little mouth moving. We were there for over an hour because she was hiding behind her hand's....being shy. I now know why they tell you not to lay on your back while pregnant. After laying there for that long, I almost passed out. I got so light headed and nauseated from my blood supply being cut off....completely worth it though! It was unbelievable and made everything that much more real. She is sooooo cute!!! I stare at this picture all the time...it is the background on my computer and my i-phone. I have it framed and carry it in my purse (thanks to Courtney for giving me a little book to put it in). Oh and its blown up on our fridge. Obsessed much? Just think what I'll be like when she is here and I can take "real" pictures.

We are working on her nursery. The crib is ready, with my beautiful pottery barn bedding (thanks Mom!) and the rest of it will be coming together soon. And if I went into labor today, we would be ready. Mine and Kaitlin's hospital bags are packed! I took a study break today to do some shopping and get things together. I am really excited for her to get here. I think she will be early. I am measuring at March 24th now. But, she is so big already! I was in shock to find out that she was already 4.6 lbs!

All of my friends keep asking for "belly" pics. We have not taken any recently because on the weekends all I do is study and my general attire is sweat pants-not cute for a picture. But I'll try to get one soon. My belly is growing for sure! :)

As for the bar, at this point I think it will be a miracle if I pass. I am studying every possible free moment, but it does not feel like enough. Working full time has been really hard. I try to study 2 hours each morning before work and then study after until I fall asleep. Sleep is difficult with extreme back pain from the pregnancy. Weekends I spend all day/night studying. BJ has thankfully been wonderful and very understanding. He has picked up the slack big time with cooking/cleaning/laundry/etc. I am very lucky!!! =) So, if I have been a bad friend lately, its because I honestly don't have any time to pick up the phone and call and I go days without responding to emails. :( Only 3 weeks to go though! I am working one more week and taking 2 off! Thank God!

And thanks to those that have called or emailed to check on me and baby. I really appreciate it and it means a lot. We are doing great!